stuck

I barely use this thing anymore. But anyways, I guess I could update a little. I'm on spring break right now, but I'm definitely not enjoying it like I thought I would. I'm always limited to what I'm allowed to do. I can never just do what I feel I should be able to do, especially since I'm on break AND I'm 18 years old! shayshhh. But it seems that some things never change, and they never will change /= I don't want to sound pessimistic, but how long are you going to keep me from the outside world? Honestly, I'm only getting older and when your trying to hold me back, it only makes it worse for the both of us. If only you could hear me out mom, and understand me on my level.

I'm supposed to be heading to Long Beach right now to go to Jaimee's pad and then visit Andrew Marco at Irvine, but it doesn't look promising /= Even though I friggin promised him I would too ]= Wow, I am a flake and a failure at keeping my word. So much for committing to something. I don't know what else to do. I feel trapped. I feel stuck.

I've been looking for a job...still. But still unlucky. If someone would just give me a chance, I know I would work hard. I'd rather be working, going to school, anything, then be at home. It's such a waste of a day.

God is love.

Communication is key... if we only had it.